I've been trying to make videos, but they're so draining. everything feels like it takes so much effort, despite it being so simple. it's also what keeps me tied to my bed so often. on the creative side, I get stuck in loopholes, where I can never share anything I ever think of or do unless I proof-read it and send it through endless internal verification processes. it's funny how it works. FUCKING OH MY GOSH, HOW CAN I TURN OFF THIS STUPID AUTO-COMPLETE THING ON VISUAL STUDIO CODE!?!?!?

oh my gosh... I just checked the suggestion tab and it's not worth pursuing. I have no idea how to disable it. as long as I just type fast so it doesn't have time to process my messages, I'll be able to out-pace the suggestor or whatever. fucking fuck. IT SUGGESTED HELL. NOW I'M ACTIVELY TRYING TO GO AGAINST IT... and now I'm entirely unoriginal. what was this post supposed to be about again...? fuck... can't even fucking remember. sometihng about my mod... Cairn maybe..? idk...

let's just leave it at that, ok?

oh right, I feel... odd posting all of these on the same day. it would be more interesting if I spread them out a bit. waited with ti. have it there, waiting in my folder. but then my entire transparency policy would be put into question. I stand by my principles.

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